Saturday, February 7, 2009

So, um, yeah...

Somehow I feel like I've ended up right where I started.

Not good really.

Sometimes, I have to resist the extreme urge to grab something large and smack someone very close to me upside the head with it until I knock whatever has become dislodged back into place.

I know what's it's like to live in denial, to work so hard for something that you lose sight of the fact that you are in a bad place and hurting the people who actually matter. What's really bad is when you are dragging someone down with you because you a) refuse to do what you promised and b) have lost perspective on the big picture.

Just because a place is familiar (and therefore "safe", in that negative, toxic way) doesn't mean it doesn't reek of shit.

*holds nose*

I just hope that eyes are opened, and that the security blanket is is burned, and that we can move on to a place that's better for both of us. Because baby, this IS NOT IT. I feel like I'm drowning, and that I'm pretty much all alone. We both deserve so much better then this.

Moving on to happier mundane things, I'm having a sale in my Etsy shop, for tonight only. (until 6am tomorrow morning)

It's a weekly thing on Etsy to have a SNS (Saturday Night Special Sale) every Saturday.

They sound so fun, that I'm going to start doing it every week myself.

Happy Saturday night everyone! :D

Stock up on stuff sale! BUY FOUR ITEMS GET THE FIFTH ONE FREE! (of equal or lesser value please

I ship internationally :) Any shipping charges that end up being more then $1 over what I charged are automatically refunded. This amount automatically goes to priority mail with insurance and delivery confirmation!

PS I should be in Cleveland at the Combichrist show right now. Hi, my life is so lame anymore.


  1. Sooooo, I hope this isnt about what happened with us last night. I was just sooo tired. Lol. I have no idea who Combichrist is so I am pretty sure you arent lame just taking a break. Also I just shoveled nachos and a carmello down my throat so i am not sure what I am writing....

  2. I can relate. We we live now is toxic and we are very much trying to escape in order to regain a semblance of normality as well as perspective.

    In other news, you've been tagged:

  3. Oh no i missed the saturday nigth sale! ill be anxiously waiting for next saturday! yipeee!